Praise You in this storm.

I don't know what happened this week. I feel like I'm slowly detaching myself away from God and the world. This week has just been so out of whack for me- I feel so out of sync! People think I'm always so happy-go-lucky and hyper all the time, but that's only because I don't act like that at all when I'm alone. Call me two-faced, but being around people makes me happy therefore I become extroverted. But being by myself makes me happy as well because I can be still within myself and I can quietly and peacefully reflect upon my thoughts.

So I'm just complaining here so far.. This week has been very bland-almost-bad for me (contrary to what my face shows). But then I randomly felt compelled to read the story of Job. He was a righteous man, blameless and upright, not to mention super rich and very well respected. Honestly, when I read that, I tried to relate him to someone that I may know in my life... but I couldn't haha. Case in point, he had everything going for him. Then God gave Satan permission to take away everything that Job had- his family, livestock, land--everything in order to prove to Satan that Job would not curse God for all this misfortune. Through all that turmoil that Satan put Job through, this is what Job did:

²⁰ At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship ²¹ and said:
"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked I will depart.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."

²² In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.
(Job 1:20-22)

In times of struggle when nothing goes the way we want it to in our lives, it's so easy to curse God and blame Him for all our misfortunes. It's easy to sing "I will praise You in this storm, and I will lift my hands...", but it's really difficult to actually do that. I realized that this week- I blamed God for my week not going my way, and I did not seek after Him. Instead, I only thanked Him for the good things He did for me instead of being grateful for even the bad things. I need to look back to Job and strive to have a heart like him.