I've been fasting for my best friend since yesterday. I'm not all too sure why at this point, but I just know that I need to do this. As I was on the phone with her couple nights ago, something kept pulling at my heart, and before I knew it, I blurted out, "Hey, this is gonna sound super random but I think I'm going to fast for you tomorrow." I'm going to assume that it was God talking through me and not my own words.. because God knows I would never say those kinds of things without fully realizing that by saying this, it would mean that I really can't eat! lol I love food too much..
But today I woke up and the first thing that I thought of was the Lord, which is always a nice way to wake up. It's sad and almost pathetic that only when I have nothing else do I fully depend on Him. I am just a few hours away from breaking my fast, and seriously, Mark 14:38 forreals...... "The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." Every time I do this I come to realize the same thing. Just as I depend so much on food to fuel me through the day, in the same way I must depend on God's Word to fuel me spiritually as well. It's such an obvious metaphor, but sooo difficult to do, which only makes me realize how much I depend on the fleshly things of the world. Every time I get hungry and feel dizzy, I've been turning to the Word of God and lifting up a prayer for my best friend. Scripture and prayer has been my food. Haha at the peak of my fast, last night Satan seriously tried to break me. Trying to make me want to eat eat eat. "Just one tootsie roll won't hurt. Nobody would even know. Your roommates don't even know you're fasting anyway. Besides, it's not like anyone's keeping you accountable for this fast so technically you wouldn't be lying to anyone," is what he said. But I care too much about my best friend, that if this is what I have to do to show her and God that this is how much I care for her and love her, I will finish it, and I will finish it strong. I want to show her God's love through prayer, reading the Word, and living my life for Christ in hopes that she may find her way back and come to know Him through a deep and personal relationship.
