to: lilckim07@gmail.com,
rachelnwilke@gmail.com,
unichang95@gmail.com
hey girls--so i just want to apologize for falling off the face of the accountability planet. to tell you the truth, i haven't been in the greatest shape spiritually. as i've mentioned in past emails, i guess it was starting in the start of march when i began to feel like this, and now i'm even more burnt out than ever serving at my church here. i'm discouraged everyday, and it's gotten to the point where it's difficult for me to get back up and just SURRENDER to the Lord. my heart has been hardened so much because of the people that i serve with and the people that i serve. my bitterness and frustration upon some of my brothers and sisters have snowballed into hatred and it's just been consuming me inside. it's been so hard just to open my Bible lately :/ i think i've been avoiding the Word because i'm afraid to face the TRUTH. because i know that if i read, God WILL rebuke me for sure. and i think it's time that i face the truth and stop running away from the Lord.2Corinthians 316: But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.18: And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.i feel like i've been living the past three weeks with a veil across my face. i just want to hide from God and everyone because i am ashamed of my ugly, broken heart. i am completely depleted of spritual fuel and overwhelmed with discouragement.. but somewhere deep inside i long for transformation.. i'm desperate for it.<3rachel
