Few things I learned this past week...

No matter how much I've been telling myself that I got this, I'm still finding out time and time again just how much of a mess my life is. Honestly, how selfish am I to be given so much yet give back nothing?? I've put God on the back burner for who knows how long to the point where when I pray before my meals, I'm not exactly sure to whom what or why I'm even praying. I've lost faith not only in Him but in myself, in my family and those I call my friends. I feel utterly isolated from everyone, yet that's exactly what I wanted, so I put myself there. I'm comfortable yet itching to get out of here. I'm content yet annoyingly miserable. I'm so frustrated with myself and then I project it towards those who try to help me. I'm in desperate need of a wake up call.