10/22/09
dilemma.
these past few months, i've been so focused on trying to get my life back in order by seeking God that now that i have seen and tasted the Truth, i find it so difficult to go back to my old self. at first i saw that as a very good thing. of course it's a good thing. i'm not that lost and insecure girl that i used to be anymore. but i've poured all of my energy into surrounding myself with good influences to avoid the "bad", that now, that is exactly what i'm doing--avoiding the "bad". i've lost connection with a lot of my old friends because i decided that they were hindering me from my walk with God; and now it's hard to talk to them because the things that i used to say and do with them are not the things that i say and do now. but God doesn't want us to separate and put ourselves above the non-believers. He wants us to witness to them and share Christ with them. but how do i talk to them without throwing bible verses at them and "lecturing" them about what Christ has done for me in my life? how do i witness to my friends without overdoing it? all i want to do is talk about Christ with them, even though i'm pretty sure that's not all they want to hear from me. i've been praying for them daily.. that God would deliver them and reveal Himself to them, so that they may taste the love and joy that i have tasted, but i feel like i don't see my prayer being even close to answered. i just don't know how to talk to my old friends anymore.. sigh~ T_T