God and Me.

I need restoration. I'm beginning to feel like I'm not only taking a break from school but also a break from God. It's so ironic because when I'm at school, I'm constantly surrounded by my Christian friends and church activities all the while feeling like I'm in some desolate wasteland where there is no fruit bearing from our branches. But then I come home and I'm surrounded by my friends who find that going to church is not a very cool thing to do anymore. I'm always looking for the "just right" balance of my Christian life because I feel like I'm always teetering from hot to cold. Will there ever be balance?? Is that even possible? All I know is.. I can see God sitting at His throne where He has always been; I'm the one who is running back and forth. 휴...ㅠ~