"1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there."
"13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well."
"19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting."
Rather than complaining about something today, I really feel the urge to give God my praise and thanks amidst all that has been going on. In Psalm 139, David has basically took my prayer and wrote it in his usual eloquence of which I could never try to emulate. God knows the ins and outs of my soul. He knows what I'm going to say before I even say it. He is everywhere. I can't possibly flee from the Lord. I love verse 14: "I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well." And then the last part of the chapter David talks about how he hates men who hate God. Many times I feel that way too. I see people taking Christianity so lightly, or think that doing so much of this and that is good enough to secure their salvation, and it makes me angry. My initial intent for my anger is not out of malicious hate, but I feel like they are insulting God. And by insulting Him, it offends me as well. Now what that initial heart for God turns into later is a different matter. A lot of the times I get carried away in my anger that it causes me to sin. That's not the kind of hate that God wants us to have. Although we may have the best intentions for caring for others, we need to be careful on where this care leads.
