Nehemiah

Wow, I just read half of the book of Nehemiah and it just blew me away. See now this is the kind of person I look up to and respect. Reflecting back on my life, I don't know if I can say I've made that same kind of commitment to fearlessly go out and make a change for God's people, but I can relate to him somewhat about having a heart for God so strong that it pushed me to step out of my comfort zone. I mean, being a Christian, being a leader at church isn't easy. I have to make that extra conscious effort to watch my actions and words so that it may properly reflect the love of Christ. I'm human, and I still make mistakes a lot. But last year, I would say that I lived a pretty comfortable life. Actually, scratch that. The last 5 years I had lived quite comfortably. I had a boyfriend who was pretty much my god who answered all my prayers and wishes. After he and I broke up I spiraled into a world of partying and doing whatever the hell I wanted. But when time came to choose between that life of fun and a life of doing something greater for a higher purpose, I was torn for a while about having to give up my life of comfort. Do I still complain about the stresses of church and pressures of the world? YES.. But for once my heart feels right where it's supposed to be- with God. My heart and joy is serving God and His people.