I feel really frustrated right now.. Maybe I'm just acting like a brat and wanting things that I could really do without. There's just so much I want to do and accomplish but I feel like I get set back constantly. My mom really needs my help and I am more than willing to drop everything and help her, but then right when I get there, my selfishness takes over and I start to grumble about wanting to be anywhere but here. She gave up so much for me, why can't I do even just this much for her? I have the right heart but my actions don't follow. Does that mean I don't care? God I hope that's not it..
“Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”- Hebrews 12:2
Sigh. What would Jesus do? Um first of all, he probably wouldn't be grumbling -_-; Right now I really envy and admire his ability to be so graceful and patient.
