[Summer 02? 03?; 4Christ Mexico Missions]Sigh, happy birthday to my dear old friend Kenneth. It's been so long, I can't even remember the last time we saw each other. I hope he never reads this, but I kinda wish he does. This guy was my first real big crush. I liked him from the 8th grade when I first got to know him at Vision Camp until 10th grade when I began my first long-term relationship. I don't remember if I ever did tell him I liked him, but the feeling was always there. I can't even remember if he liked me back, but I don't think I minded too much whether he did or didn't because I was too in love with our friendship. I remember the first time I ever had a real conversation with him was one of our deepest ones (how ever deep 8th graders could get at the time haha); it was in the back of a dusty old school bus at our second or third Mexico Missions trip together and we were on our way to the mission center. We talked about this and that, but mostly about life, our dreams and fears- and that was when I realized that that was the first time I ever opened up so much of myself to anyone and vice versa. We kept in close touch even after I moved to Indiana at the start of our first year of high school. Haha I remember writing meticulously every day into this journal about everything that went through my day and mind. He did the same, too. We would write and write until the pages filled up, and then we would mail them to each other or trade the next summer we saw each other again at Missions. This went on for a good couple of years, and then we had somewhat of a falling out? This was my fault, because I began to assimilate myself into my new life in Indy with a new school and new friends, which then I met a boy. I guess that was when my connection with Kenneth gradually ceased. Like a patient with cancer, we lost touch with one another slowly; the emails slowed down, less phone calls, we wouldn't see each other online as much. It's been over 5 years now and I'm sure we have so many new memories with completely new people; it's saddening that I don't know much about his life anymore and vice versa. But I still consider him as one of the best friends anyone could ever ask for. So many memories with this dude. Happy 21st, my KYK butt friend. (:
*random side note: I remember a time when I was obsessed with So Sick by Ne-yo because of the lyrics that said "gotta fix that calendar I have that's marked july 15th, because since there's no more you, there's no more anniversary.." hahahaha and i always thought of my good friend.
