God of the mundane.

i've noticed how much of an extreme person i can be. i only feel like writing when i'm either extremely happy or extremely sad or extremely frustrated. but when i'm not at any of those ends, my mind becomes a vacuum space. no matter how much i want to just write something down, my thoughts won't form itself into the words which that i'd like to convey. i start babbling even inside my head and all i see is a string of 'asdfjidwniaasdfh'. i used to think that that meant perhaps i'm not doing something right or that my sins are clouding me from expressing any kind of emotion. true or not, i started to associate the blankness of my mind with the condition of my heart and spiritual life. so if i wasn't feeling inspired in any way, i figured "i'm just not feeling church today. just not feelin it, God." sooo ridiculous to think that way! what was i thinkkking. through my recent prayers, i've been coming to realize more and more that God is SOVEREIGN. He's in and above all things, which include even the menial of tasks and the days when we're just bored to death. a lot of us think that when we entrap ourselves in "going through the motions", it always means we're just not feelin it. but sometimes it's okay to be in that loop. it's okay because it helps build perseverance and discipline. if you want something done right you practice it over and over again until it becomes second nature to you. that's how i want my love for God to be--unconditional.